2009 Resolutions

I have several resolutions for the year 2009. And one big one. I’ve never even worked on a resolution before. It’s just been something I do to feel like I’m part of the New Year’s tradition. I haven’t always stuck out my goals, the longest thing I’ve committed to is Dave. So, that being said…

One of my resolutions for 2009 is to control myself better. I mean not overreacting, not sweating the small stuff, learning to deal with things as they come, and learning to ask for help sooner than later. Another resolution is to improve my relationship with Dave. We’re doing great, don’t get me wrong, but I think sometimes we distance ourselves from each other after arguments, and I’d like to learn not to have them in the first place.

And, my biggest goal for 2009? Lose weight! Yes, I know that’s on EVERYONE’S to-do list, but I’m serious. I want to have a ton of fun on our wedding day (and honeymoon ) and I think I would feel better about myself if I were thinner and healthier. But I’m not just doing this for looks. I truly want to be healthy. I want to be more active and be able to go running and swimming, or to even be able to wear a cute swimming suit. I want to be healthy for eventual pregnancy, and Dave and I have been talking about having kids soon after marriage, since we’ve already been together for 3 years (4 by the time we’re married).

I won’t say how much I want to lose, because then you’d be able to figure out how much I weigh now! But I want to eventually be about 150lbs. And that’s a lot for me. Well, whichever one comes first…150lbs or my high school jeans that are size 9. So far my rules are:

If I’m out and must eat fast food it has to be a salad or chicken wrap, or something of the like; otherwise no fast food because I’m just being lazy
Everything that comes from the grocery store has to be whole grain, low fat, or diet
More fruits and veggies
Less carbs and calories
No soda, less milk, more water
Start out with exercise 3 times a week for half an hour; work my way up to 5 times a week for one hour
Get a workout/losing weight buddy (check)
Don’t give up!

So, wish me luck! This is going to be the most difficult full-time job I’ve had in my whole life!

News Update

I decided to take the job with C&B Renovations. I will be starting within a couple weeks. I let my vet clinic employer know my situation, and, on good terms, no longer will be working there. They welcomed me to come back any time.

I was also thinking that Dave and I could have that September wedding we’ve wanted for so long. That was our first choice, back in 2005 when we first planned a wedding. If we don’t have to rush it, we’d like to wait just a few months more and have a really nice one.

In other news, Ozzie had his sutures taken out last week, and is healing well. It’s just a matter of time before his fur grows back in. Everyone in our cat clan is happy and healthy for the holidays.

Dave and I are doing great. We decided to start going back to AA, we feel we both need it lately. We have grown a little closer these last few weeks, I’m not sure what made such a difference. Maybe it’s the time of year. Maybe it’s that we’ve been through so much together each year. Whatever the reason, I’m thankful for it.

Is Money More Important

I don’t have enough money to live on my own anymore. My new receptionist job pays $600/month, and my parents would like me to move home when my lease is up here in March. I miss home, and my parents, but it would just be too hard to move home after being on my own for 2 1/2 years. Plus, I would have a hard time commuting to work (over an hour away with traffic) for such low income. My boss said she doesn’t know if they will ever have the availability to train me for assistance, and can’t guarantee when or if I’ll ever get more hours.

With Dave’s income, we just might be able to support ourselves if we got married in March. Barely. Here’s the thing though. C&B Renovations just offered me $4,000 a month to hire on full time. I was talking to my manager today about it and she said “well I wouldn’t even hesitate, if I were you I would have taken the job immediately and quit here.” But I wanted this job so badly! She told me we were on good terms if I decided to leave and if, for any reason, I needed to come back, either as reception or assistance, they would hire me on.

I just don’t know what to do. I think either way Dave and I would like to get married so we can move into a new apartment together, but that’s so close. It doesn’t give us much time to plan a wedding. It would have to be small.